Today it paid to be white
Is breathing not a birthright?
Exhausted melanin
Innocent felon in
The life of a black man tonight
I’ll admit, sharing my thoughts on racism publicly doesn’t come easily to me, but not for the reasons you might think. It is not because I am afraid of speaking my mind, or what you might think of me if I do. It is because I am protective of my family and guard these conversations carefully, because I fear drawing unwanted attention that might cause more harm than good. It is because I spend more time listening to loved ones sharing their stories, than trying to explain mine. It is because I believe actions speak louder than words. It is because I don’t want pity, and I don’t want you to pity my family members either. It’s draining. It’s disheartening. And most importantly, it is not my story to tell.
Yet, here I am, another white lady telling you all about it. Just promise me that when you’re done reading, go find some articles, blogs, and literature written by members the black community, and read those too.
Let me begin by addressing my white friends and family who are tired of hearing about racism. You’re tired of it, but imagine having to experience it every day. I realize you can’t because you’re white, so let me share a bit of what I have witnessed.
…shouted at “you get out of here!” when lost and looking for a correct address then followed and questioned by the police, motorcycle engine revved until the baby is crying hysterically and it’s time to go now, “no I’ll pick it up, you stay with the kids” (picking up a table we purchased second-hand, because my white skin won’t be suspected for stealing, fighting or paying with counterfeit money), is that child bothering you? says the clerk to a white child playing with mine, flyer for white supremacy group dropped casually on the restaurant table, searching for a black doll among an isle of white, called the n-word by person living under the same roof, pulled over by police and questioned while driving friend’s car through wealthy neighborhood to pick her up from work, is my child mine and “… are you sure?”, spat on and called the n-word at work in uniform, locked out of own elementary school and refused re-entry by white staff members including administration, fired for a simple error that a white colleague also made and didn’t get fired for, bringing me and the kids along to professional events because it paints a different image, stopped by police and handcuffed in own neighborhood for walking down sidewalk carrying iced tea, Mommy I wish I was white like the Disney princesses, discreet remarks that things will fail for us as a family unit, worrying while he’s out on a run, harassed on daily bus route, “you’ll never be as beautiful as a white woman”, expelled from school for making a rude comment while white peers who did too were suspended, woman calls her sister to say that she’s uncomfortable with my family being on the beach near her home tossing rocks into waves, forced out of a job because the managers’ bestie got laid off and “needs the work to feed his family”, etcetera…
What is happening now is not the reaction to the murder of one black man. It’s the reaction to the daily exhaustion, or fatigue, and cumulative stress black people face, which is something you and I have to admit we are not able to comprehend. But we can listen, with empathy.
Now, I would like to address my white friends and family, who are upset and are actively trying to figure out what to do with that discomfort, shame, anger and sadness. Who want to make a difference in dismantling the white supremacy which has been deeply rooted in our lives. I feel you! There are plenty of resources online offering suggestions for what you can do and literature to read. Here are a couple:
https://medium.com/equality-includes-you/what-white-people-can-do-for-racial-justice-f2d18b0e0234
https://themighty.com/2020/06/support-black-lives-matter-cant-protest/
The rest of what I have to say addresses our future generation, and the ways in which we are bringing up and educating our young children.
Like any parent, I want my kids to have happy childhood memories, and an adulthood of contentment, growth, faith and love. But I want even more than that. I want mine to be viewed for their authentic selves, not as someone whose skin color means they require the service of others in order to be alright in the world. I want for them to be able to make mistakes just like your kids will, and be disciplined neither more or less severely than yours would. I want for them to become adults who are seen as equally human, not as a threat, or in some way incapable. But they will, as their father often is, unless there is major change in the way people of color are humanized by white people, and in the way we white folks are able to empathize and take on perspectives that are different from our own.
I’ve read well-intentioned posts in some parenting groups recently, asking for recommended books to help teach their children about racism, and how to be anti-racist. There was a request for books specifically about slavery and racism for a four year old, and with the exception of one woman of color, all the recommendations came from white women. The white-lady-recommended-books do seem useful for discussing anti-racism. But they also, in one way or another, portray people of color as victims of oppression. Not one simply characterized the humanity of black children, doing normal everyday things.
Why is this bothering me so much?
Because when you read to your child about the struggles of black people, what do they see? Black people who struggle. And when you discuss at the dinner table how that white kid really stood up for that black kid, what do they hear? Black people need white people to rescue them, empower them, help them.
I have learned to be more conscious of the language and conversation that takes place in our home, especially during times like right now where we have a lot on our minds and a lot to say. I constantly have to check myself. Are my words creating an image for my child that humanizes people of color, or do they simply highlight the reality of their oppression?
I have also learned to be mindful about the roles of black characters in the books we choose for our home. A large majority play a victim role, needing to overcome something. I don’t want my black children to see themselves that way. I don’t want your white children to see my black children that way. If you’ve met my kids, you know how confident and fun-loving they are. I’m not about to destroy that with heaps of stories about how kids who look like them are viewed as inferior because of the color of their skin, even if in the end she overcomes the struggle and gets the lead ballerina role after all, because her white friends stood up for her.
Where are all the books that show black people doing everyday things? Walking the dog, celebrating a birthday, splashing at the beach, learning to whistle, picnicking at the park. Ask yourself: how many books in my home (or classroom, or daycare, or waiting room) feature a lead character (not just the signature black kid in the background making the book seem diverse) who is not white, and who is in no way a victim of some sort of racism? If you’re struggling to find some, that is simply because they are not easy to find! I’ve spent the last five years searching, and have eventually had to special order books from a small South African publishing company. Research shows that publishing companies often deny books featuring a black lead character (who isn’t playing the victim role) because unfortunately they don’t sell as well. Ask yourself why that is.
There may be a time when I will need your white child to defend my black child. But I don’t want it to be because an instructional text told them they were supposed to. I want it to be because my child is valued by your child. Because your child sees my child as equally human, and can empathize enough to do what is right.
Below are a few of my kids’ favorite books, to help you begin to build a home/school/daycare library for your children that depict the humanity of black people. I’ll even toss in a book on empathy/listening. I found most of these at second-hand stores. All are available on Amazon, and most are available in public libraries and small bookshops, too. They are geared towards younger children, ages birth to five, since that’s where we’re at in our family. I would love to hear your favorites too!
Thank you for being here and engaging in my words. Thank you to those who have messaged us or called to check in and see how we are doing. Interestingly, the most support I personally have received since the murder of George Floyd, has been from my sister who is deaf. Belonging to a marginalized group herself, she understands the amount of energy it takes to live through each day, and the cumulative stress of it all.
Keep listening, praying and taking action. I promise to do the same.
Please, Puppy, Please by Spike Lee and Tonya Lewis Lee (two children trying to give their puppy a bath)
So Much by Trish Cooke (my fave, my kids’ fave, just get this one)
Anna Hibiscus books by Atinuke & Lauren Tobia. They also write chapter books for older kids, but the ones we have are Splash, Anna Hibiscus! and Anna Hibiscus’ Song
In a Minute by Tony Bradman & Eileen Browne (children can relate to the main character having to wait for her parents when they say “I’ll be with you in a minute”)
Mama bird, Baby Birds and Rain Feet by Angela Johnson (short, simple, relatable board books)
Any books by Ezra Jack Keats: Whistle for Willie, The Snowy Day, Peter’s Chair, Pet Show!, A Letter to Amy (all are perfect examples of black characters doing everyday things children can relate to)
Whose Knees Are These?, Whose Toes are Those? and Girl of Mine by Jabari Asim (board books for babies/toddlers)
Let’s Go To Playgroup and Let’s Go To Bed by Pamela Venus (board books)
Ten Nine Eight by Molly Bang (short nighttime story)
Every Little Thing by Cedella Marley (Bonus: you get to sing this one)
A Fairy Tale Treasury by John Kurtz (classic stories with black characters)
The Field by Baptiste Paul (describes a pick-up soccer game)
Saturday by Oge Mora (also a great lesson on handling a change of plans and one we parent’s can relate to as well) & Thank You, Omu ( a story about what happens when you share so much that there is nothing left!)
Ten Little Surfers by Catherine Payne (cute rhyming board book, depicts a variety of races having fun surfing together)
Bedtime Bonnet by Nancy Redd (all about nighttime hair traditions!)
The King of Kindergarten by Vanessa Brantley-Newton and Derrick Barnes (boost first-year of school confidence by exploring what it’s going to be like) & Grandma’s Purse (a little mystery and magic when Grandma Mimi visits)
How to Find a Fox y Nilah Magruder (a story about determination/not giving up- the fox is sneaky and hard to find!)
We all Went on Safari by Laurie Krebs (okay hanging out with wild animals might not be an everyday ordinary thing to do, but nevertheless this has been my kid’s favorite nighttime book since day one)
The Airport Book by Lisa Brown (biracial family experiences the happenings in an airport together as they are heading for a vacation, perfect for prepping your kids for a flight or teaching them the functions of an airport)
Books by Rachel Isadora, especially classic stories with black characters such as The Princess and the Pea, Hansel and Gretel and Rapunzel. ‘I Hear a Pickle’ is also fun to read! Peekaboo Morning is lovely too, for littler ones.
Ada Twist, Scientist by Andrea Beaty (make it known that black females are scientists too!)
City Shapes by Diana Murray (fun way to teach shapes)
Looking for Bongo by Eric Velasquez (a boy investigates his missing toy)
I Got the Rhythm by Connie Schofield-Morrison (even butterflies make music in this fun one)
Zoey and Sassafras chapter books by Asia Citro (A super fun mix of scientific methods and magical creatures!)
The Magnificent Makers by Theanne Griffith (chapter books covering scientific topics with adventure and humor)
The Camping Trip by Jennifer Mann (All about the camping experience!)
The Quickest Kid in Clarksville by Pat Zietlow Miller (a competitive and determined young one is faced with a challenge- this one is all about friendship)
Smiling by Gwenyth Swain (depicts a variety of races, just smiling)
Whoosh! Lonnie Johnson’s Super-Soaking Stream of Inventions by Chris Barton (all about NASA’s Lonnie Johnson)
The Lost Property Office by Emily Rand (a girl leaves her teddy on the train and adventures to find it again)
One Hot Summer Day by Nina Crews (what a young girl observes on a hot day in the city)
Thank you by Betsey Chessen (depicts a variety of races, helping their family with chores)
Hair Love by Matthew Cherry (also a short film, and so beautiful!)
Max and the Tag-Along Moon by Floyd Cooper, A Beach Tail by Karen Williams and Floyd Cooper (fun concepts such the fact that no matter where we live, we are underneath the same moon)
And one on listening/empathy… The Rabbit Listened by Cori Doerrfeld (good for adults too!)